What the fuck is wrong with my younger brother . . .

Like this kid is twisted up on the inside. Sometimes I just want to punch him in the face and in the act somehow knock the sheer absurdity and ignorance right out of his skull. Like he hounds me constantly, I want to hang out, I want to hang out; and yes, I do hang out with Fika more, but . . . fuck, dude, she's 18. Not 14. She can come to Aladdin's. Which is normally where I go to hang out. I don't mean to be an ass to him and make up shit like I'm always busy, but when he asks to randomly come over to my house, I know that it's not completely about fellowship for him. He wants to sit up on Sean's Xbox and play Halo online, or play games on Sean's computer or eat the shit out of the food in the kitchen or give me various details about his life that I really, really, really could do without. I don't give a shit about you catching random boners and hugging on little high-schoolers. They stopped being attractive to me when . . . well my last year of high school. Maybe I'm the real asshat, because this is the only way he knows to interact with me and maybe he thinks that if he shows me that he too is very interested in girls, and likes similar video games that this will somehow . . . make me more endearing. Unfortunately, that's not the case. I'm fairly content in being by myself, a lot of the time. Megan is different. First, she doesn't hound me to play video games and normally can be found either watching television in her spare time or reading a book; or if the mood strikes her . . . with me on, in, or around her person. And being that John is the furthest thing from attractive to me and doesn't know how to take a fucking hint, I tend to avoid him at times. And that's really fucked up. I know. But I don't really see myself changing anytime soon. I'm stressing over not having a job and the various things that places that I apply tell me; and generally just don't feel like being around a hyper teenager. Makes me wonder if I was that bothersome as a kid . . . I don't think so, because I spent the majority of my time, alone, writing poetry or alone, reading books. I didn't really have anyone to socialize with outside of school. I know he's got that and shouldn't be so gung-ho about being around me . . . Fuck, I'm rambling again.